Worth the wait...

So I have spent weeks anticipating our little Trayden's smile. Everyday I have spent half the day acting obnoxious hoping to cause a grin to spread across his face. But today July 25th was the day...and he unleashed it full force! I was on cloud nine all day. It was definitely worth the wait. Isn't he a cutie!! So of course we had to rush to Babies R Us to capture the moment. He is so dang cute and getting so dang chubby- I love it!

Surfacing...

Hello World!! Wow, I can't believe it has been 7 weeks since we had little Tray. I feel like I have been running around like a crazy person and as a result I have neglected my blog- sorry. He has been a bundle of joy- but there has been lots of crying. Poor little guy has had some issues and has been hurting and he has been quite vocal about it. We are talking lots of loud screaming!! It breaks my heart and it has been so hard feeling so helpless. The good news is he is feeling much better and is much happier. Thank goodness for Prevacid!! I think the hardest thing about being a Mom is feeling helpless. It is a guessing game trying to figure out what is wrong and in the meantime your heart is breaking so it's not much of a game...at least not a fun one. But... he is starting to SMILE!!! Yahoo!! I have been waiting forever for this. It seems like he has spent most of his life in pain so far and so I can't tell you how THRILLED I was to see a happy face. In that moment you forget about all the hardships and all the crying. I have not been able to document it yet on film, but I am working on it so hang in there. All I can say, is this guy is the love of my life (along with you James) he is amazing! I love holding him in my arms and just staring at him and examining every detail of him and marveling that we were able to bring this little miracle into the world. Motherhood is the best thing that has ever happened to me. It has been really challenging (especially when you have a baby crying for hours straight) but is has also been so rewarding and I have already seen so much growth in myself. I have a LONG way to go but hopefully someday I will be the person Heavenly Father knows I can be. That is the beauty of parenthood, I really think it pushes us to be better, to be selfless and to be the best version of ourselves. So with that being said, enjoy these cute shots of our little bundle of joy!!